This happened before, years ago, mornings just like today, a common occurrence. Over-thinking. A bad night’s sleep. Shaky. Hungover. Dry heaving. Brain-fogged. I don’t miss it. At all.
I’ve worked myself into a tizzy.
Tizzy (noun): a state of nervous excitement or agitation.
Nervous excitement sounds fun. I’m in the agitation camp. I’m worried I’m going to die.
Things aren’t right. This has gone on for months. I feel dizzy when I run. My doctor started the trial and error routine. He cut-off my blood pressure medicine to see if that helped. Last night before bed:
Me: “Jes-sus!”
Eli walked by: “Wow, Dad. That’s high.” Blood pressure: 157/101. I did some research. Imminent stroke risk at 180/120—I’m more than halfway there. A fitful sleep. Awake at twelve-thirty. Awake at three o’clock—and up for the day. I started on coffee before four. My fingers and toes tingled.
I ran a Google search: tingling fingers and toes… Google filled in: …caused by high blood pressure.
Kidney failure, this is a thing. Kidney failure caused by hypertension; when should I see a doctor? Now!
I see him tomorrow. I broke ranks and took my blood pressure medication. I don’t want to be killed by the cure.
My head spins, swims. Last night and now today. It started after a bike ride. Subtle, I wonder if it’s really there. Maybe I’m fine, I can’t tell if I’m not.
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Wow! That is good you got an appointment right away. I hope the Doctor is able to help bring your body and mind some peace!
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I wonder and worry about how much is OCD and how much is real. For what ever reason I’m really triggered all of a sudden. I better make a list for my appointment.
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Good idea!
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The anxiety of not knowing is dreadful. Please know that there are many things this could be – perhaps it is low iron. You have an appointment. Try and relax. My best wishes Jeff.
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Well, first I’m hoping for a better night’s sleep. Last night sucked. I’m struggling trying to figure out where obvious and real problems (getting crazy-dizzy on a run) end, and potentially OCD manufactured problems begin. Are my fingers really tingly? Was I really dizzy all day? What’s real, what’s not. Aargh.
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I hope you’re appointment goes well and that you get some answers Jeff. Health anxiety is the worst.
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Thank you Frede.
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Have you tried turning it off and on?
(seriously though, all luck, Jeff!)
Nick
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Is that an IT Crowd reference or general sarcasm?
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IT, definitely! I wish you well!
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Best of luck. I worry endlessly about my health, and the internet’s terrible for increasing worries. I’ve learned not to try and think what it might be until seeing a doctor. Wishing you all the best
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Thank Oliver. Trying to do the same.
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Wishing you the best!!
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Thank you Sarah.
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I don’t know if yoga or meditation is something you do, but either might help relax your body and mind. Glad you’re seeing your doc tomorrow.
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Good luck, hope your visit with the doc yields answers and solutions.
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Thank you Rebecca
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My blood pressure on a good day runs 157/98. I spent a couple days in the hospital having all kinds if tests run, they even did an ultrasound if my heart, which was cool. The result 🤷🏼♀️ “we don’t know why it’s high.” There was nothing wrong with me. I have chronic pain from fibromyalgia, my stress is ridiculous and I’m a chronic insomniac.
My point?? You’re stressing yourself out! That’s my free opinion. I’m glad you’re seeing the doc.
Maybe you should quit running when its hella hot,🤷🏼♀️ and remember to breathe… sometimes when I’m stressed I hold my breath without realizing it. Not breathing could make a person feel dizzy🤦🏼♀️🍀
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Right. Crustytuna (who is a doctor) told me to stop googling. I have an appointment today and I’ll move forward on the next steps. I’m guessing if we get into diagnostics, they’ll be looking at my oxygen levels. Maybe I’m not breathing too. This has been going on since the pandemic started. Maybe it’s all anxiety.
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Please update us when you can, hope you feel better.
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I will. Thanks
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Please don’t google! You will drive yourself mad and convince yourself you are dying, which you are not, well not imminently anyway. Hopeful that they will find a simple explanation for what’s been going on. Strength and healing vibes to you..
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Right. No google. My kidneys seem to be still operating. This is all very complicated by OCD. I ran this morning and now I’m ‘dizzy’ but am I really?
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Hope you get an answer, and that it is an uncomplicated and easy to remedy one!
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Me too. I really want this to be one of those situations where the doctor knows exactly what to do. In actuality, it’s going to be trial and error.
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