Lately I’m seeing some depression slip in. It’s mostly evident in the body oils that leak into my eyes from a lack of showers. The internet died and died again and again and stayed dead. Me, unable to catch my breath or take a deep breath waiting for Comcast to call back. I snapped at anyone who got close.
Today I poked at email, wanting direction; it never came. Instead, I took my turn at the puzzle. One thousand pieces. Eight hundred assembled as COVID-19 gathered steam. Two piles remain. Sky-blue, hazy-cloud-white. My heart pounds harder as I cycle through the options, impossibly without a match.
“What’s wrong?” Abrased under scrutiny or concern, either/or, identical to me. I fight back or maybe just fight. Uncertainty = unmotivation. I start each day reading CNN on the kitchen bar stool until a low ache in my back moves me towards the couch. The pain, unchanged, sends me to the open spot on the floor to stretch and plank and down dog and crunch. My day peaks with promise but fizzles a moment later and slides a downhill slope until I go to bed.
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We hear so much about how the virus itself affects people. More people are having problems trying to stay away from the virus. I know our country isn’t prepared for the Mental Health damage the pandemic is causing.
Best wishes!
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Might need to join you with the floor exercises after all the biscuits I seem to be eating. Hugs.❤️
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I know. My kids and wife are making new desserts every day. We can’t even keep up with the eating, I need to do a lot more than some yoga.
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Sounds like a wonderful lockdown. Desserts galore. Comfort food is important. Enjoy the desserts while they last. Feed the birds as a last resort.
Currently planking on the couch.
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Oof. Ice cream cake tonight (this one from a store). Luckily I went for a run today.
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Savour every mouthful. Enjoy! 😋
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We’re feeling it too. When’s it going to change? Debbie’s post about mindfulness helped me some – stop and check what is good in the moment. Take care of yourself!
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You’re right. Debbie’s post is helpful. https://conversationsaboutautism.com/2020/04/14/coming-to-terms-with-social-distancing/
I need to spend more time observing the moment rather than reacting to it.
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I was in a funk too until I started to REALLY monitor my time online. That’s helped.
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It’s not a bad idea 👍
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I signed up for Yale’s The Science of Well-being course, and the professor added an additional Q&A for dealing with coronavirus. I found it very helpful-
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I’ll check it out, thanks
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I have been having trouble when I run lately. Lack of confidence. The runs I did easily a few months ago now cause me to doubt my ability to finish. This too shall pass.
Hope the cable guy got there by the time you read this!
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Today, the rest of my family announced we were getting a Blizzard cake from DQ, so I forced myself out for a midlength run. OMG that wind was nuts. I’m hoping it severed the slump I’ve been in. The cake was delicious.
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